Saturday, October 31, 2009

Just another Story. Part-2

Continued fromMind out: Just another Story. Part-1

Anu unlike most of the times grew a bit matured this time. She didn't tell anyone that Rohit called , not even to her best friends Arohi and Rishi. She even didn't give any clue to anyone how much sad, how upset she really was. At last she was able to conceal her feelings somehow - she thought. Arohi lived a bit distant cause she lived in other state for study purposes , so all the time it was not possible for Anu to share everything with her. But Rishi , being Anu's best friend and staying side by side most of the times  ,always understood her, often even the unuttered things. 
But this time, Rishi even didn't understand. May be because Rishi was a bit busy with himself unlike most other times when he always delves in Anu's mind. They were good friends ,  rather best friends for years, not childhood ones though.
Anu was almost a baby to him and together they would look like anything --- brother-sister, girl friend-boy friend, artist and his art, best friends. Rishi and Anu both treasured their precious friendship and they were so much confident that they even did'nt pay any heed to what others' thought of their being together for so much time, because they knew there was nothing 'something else'. Anu continued to flow in thoughts of Rohit , being determined not to place anyone else below Rohit's diadem and not even trying to bring anyone else in her thoughts. And also most of the times she didn't keep her thoughts to herself only, Anu felt secured in the often warm emraces of Rishi, Rishi was there, a safe shoulder to cry on and a safe locker to put all the thoughts and feelings safely locked.

Rishi was a boy with strong wills, dedications , determinations who always respected Anu's all thoughts and feelings, however idiotic at times they may be. Even when Anu used to get upset with guys approaching her, Rishi always calmed her down... But things always doesn't go uniformly. No one really understands the chicanery of fate and mind, however cherubic at times they may be. Enthereal moments they shared were never a sort of billet-doux for them. But 'stupid cupid'  with much patience and time created iridescent hues in Rishi's mind . Yes, Rishi was madly in love with Anu. He tied his mind and tried hard not let Anu know anything about that. But Anu was a girl and above all Rishi's best friend who used to make out so many of his problems even before Rishi thought of telling them to Anu, No exception this time. Anu understood. Again it was somehow a bad situation for Anu, perhaps worse. What to say your best friend , what are the word to console that person who loves you madly but doesn't even expect anything in return!! Anu was again befuddled, about what she should do.!  

 Arohi suggested her not to be the sameway any more. Arohi asked her to stop all her childish behaviours and kiddish requests and throw them away. Anu was sad. She was again on the verge of loosing a friend?!! Rishi didn't allow her to do so. He promised her not to pick that topic again. But Anu thougt she should become bit cautious , so that in no way Rishi should feel or start expecting 'something' in return.
They continue to be friends ; together 'stopping' to think about 'their' future, one trying hard to confide love, One fighting hard to keep safe distance from so much of 'loves' all around.

As the planet rotates our lives also rotate and we never know whats really waiting for us in the next turning point. Just as Anu, Rohit, Rishi , Arohi all waiting for the 'Next'.

Mind out: Just another Story. Part -3
Mind out: Just another Story. Part -4
Mind out: Just another Story. Part-5

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Random thoughts.

I wonder how the crowd has encircled me.
Early teenage solitude seems a bliss now.
Works to be done, responsibilities to be carried out.
Going gaga for various things at various times.

Just Dreaming to be alone now.
Who will let me ,to be so?

Often I feel lost in these
Dastardly earthy hues.
So much ears, so much eyes
Open just for me?

Just to praise or criticise me.!?
Or just they pretend..!!!
I hear and see so much of them.
Never felt so crowded ever before...

Zonked of hearing the jabberings.
Euphorian dreams exhorting the cravenly mind.

I need some space, some solitude
Some bliss.

Its not:
"The tyrant claims freedom to kill freedom".
I have plenty of it.
Yet the 'yet' remains.
I am confused,

I am lost

Monday, October 19, 2009

Just another Story. Part-1

Its almost two years now ,of break up between Anu and Rohit.

Anu loved Rohit from the time she started understanding the meaning of 'love', in her early teenage.But ,destiny played game with her.
He moved far away from her, with no scope of contact and rohit had no idea about her feelings at all. They were not friends, not among relatives even, they just knew each other..

Some seven years later they met. Anu was overwhelmed, just by realising Rohit recognised her face , seen long seven years back. Nothing went wrong then onwards. Rohit approached her and proposed her even, which was almost a chimera to Anu for years. So many people told her and tried to convince her that she couldn't wait for someone or 'just' love someone without seeing or even knowing much about him,  for soo many years . But she did, at least, then she believed she did.
Time passed on . Those were the happiest days of her life. Those moments, those thoughts , feelings...yeah,she got the man she loved , though she never desired. She loved without any expectations. she loved without a little bit of hope of getting Rohit ever in her life. So when in reality things happened that way  ,it was not really a dream come true for her. She never dreamt of that. She prayed for him, loved him, even wished him to be happy with someone else if he was in love with someone else( she
had no idea though what was going in his life or whether at all anyone was in his life).

Good times never lasts. It was not an exception for Anu's airy-fairy tale and her hunky-dory world.
They broke up. She was having adjustment problems. A number of times she started feeeling she was insulted , her morale, her principles were looked down upon, and often crushed even. She couldn't tolerate all those. As they were together ,breaking all prognostications, they parted breaking all predictions.

He was first in her life, but she was not the first one in his life. After Anu and Rohit broke up, Rohit went back to his first girlfriend(oops love..!) who claimed she always loved him , though Rohit left her due to some mere misunderstandings.
But Anu was alone. She loved to live that way, without inculcating any other 'especial' person in her life. She was happy being alone. She had no expectations from anyone.
The only thing changed in her was her mentality. She was determined not to be committed again. She was prepared to lead the rest of her life by her own. She didn't feel anybody's need in her life any more.

Days passed.
Rohit was traversing his ups and downs of life with another girl by his side --- this thought often hurt Anu, and often she was satisfied and happy thinking Rohit was no longer morosed for her,he was no longer living their memories as Anu still did.

Two years later on Rohit's birthday Anu wished him via SMS,not a call. He thanked and called her. It was 12.26 A.M. The conversation went. ...

Rohit[R]: Hello....

Anu [A]: Hello.

Rohit: how are you?

Anu: I am well as always...

R: Good.

A: yeah I know.

R: so.... whats going in your life?

A: studies, exams, gossips , music and everything thats required for me and myself.

R: Well thats essential part of life. What else, whats goin on in your personal life? Is there anyone now in your.......

A: No, I didn't feel any requirement of anyone else in my life. And what all happened in my life even if I blame someone,Its me.....

R: You are still very angry on me, right?

A: Why should I be? I am happy with whatever life gifted me. I never thought of getting it. I have no objections or complaints against anyone. And I don't blame myself generally, Cause I love myself the most on earth.And well the way I felt myself to be insulted, I want none any more. What do you think if you now wish me to be back in your life I'll be...Never.

R: Hmmmm ...Good, thats very good ki you don't blame yourself....

A: yeah I know, and apart from that there are actually soo many things going on in my life. Each week rather each day of my life is eventful for me...

R: Do you still remember me often?

A: Why should I?

R: Answer my question.

A: (Anu's voice started trembling and cracking....) Why should I remember You?

R: You are lieing...I know you are. Have some water now.

A: Yeah I had, Why should I lie?

R: Can't you answer a single answer properly and straight? You are not in your best manners now....

A: If I am not, Well I can't behave better than this....

R: You have remained the same...

A: Hmmm....

R: I am feeling sorry now, I didn't wish you on your b'day. Actually something very wrong was or is still going on in my life..I'll tell you someday....Sorry I didn't wish you...

A: Doesn't matter. I didn't expect or want anyone's wish.

Rahul: Well I didn't ask for your opinion, I said I felt sorry for not wishing...Actually today after coming out of office all of a sudden I remembered you...

Anu: ok ok....sorry...

R: Hmm.. so now ,can I give you a call ,often?

A: Whats the use?

R: Why don't you answer a single question clearly...Can I call you?

A: No, please no, No need. I am happy with the past memories, I don't want to refresh them And I don't want you as my friend or brother or any other thing on earth. I loved You and I still cherish many of my memories with you. Its better to relish ice-cream frozen and chicken soup hot... Will you like them the
other way round??

R: hmmm now go to sleep...

A: hmm ok(no words were coming out now)..bye. good night...

And She hung up.... Then she burst into her usual tears. But this time this phone call made her stronger. She felt bad when he asked him whether she still remembers him or not, whether he can still call her or not..Didn't he really knows the answers.!
So what was his purpose?! To cool her down and consolate her, Or her first love again left him and he wanted Anu back.!!
Why are some rather most men so insensible, so selfish,and so unfeeling...!! Anu wondered.
She spoke to herself and once again confirmed her determination of not committing to anyone in life... One who hardly respected her thoughts, her feelings.. one who was so obfuscated with himself that he hardly looked around...He asked soo many questions.
But she hardly did any.Perhaps she didn't have any curiosity , or perhaps she had all the answers...!!
She had one question to ask "How are you?"..But she didn't ask. Because she thought she would be sad with any of the answers.
It was already very late and she was more than tired physically and mentally.....she thought and thought untill sleep engulped her and relieved her.

Mind out: Just another Story. Part-2 
Mind out: Just another Story. Part -3
Mind out: Just another Story. Part -4
Mind out: Just another Story. Part-5

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Happy Diwali

Happy Diwali.

Though now, at this moment its not seeming so 'happy' ,to me. After a very hectic day, tolerating some pretty much 'attyachars'(both emosanal and mansic(k).....) of friends, foes and some government employees(They really suck...!!...:X) ,I came back just an hour back. I had a severe headache (same old migraine), so darkened the room and wanted to have a nap....

But ..but.. who lets me to have it now...!!! In spite of all the stars and moons shouting in all the medias possible 'to turn down the volume ' some dumbs , cracks and jerks are having fun throwing those bombs and that today(though they already started 'bombing' few days back I realised the true pain today)....and destroying my sleep and increasing my pain...
I don't understand how can people get and have fun hearing to all sorts of loud, eerie,and strange sounds[also I 'try' to understand at wwhat rate actually people are becoming rich (beyond reach), so that they can afford so much more to make soo loud sounds by burnings MOnEY..!!...why don't they give me some!!!?...:P....:( .....]. I myself never ever , even as a child had fun with these stuffs..

I am not much fond of the firecrackers and stuffs even... That may be because I am a bit scared of fire and heat and a bit conscious about myself..:P(well that's typical of a girl, I know, I know...but who said I have to lack feminine characters being a girl only...:P......~ a bad joke though..!!)
But the light and the fire designed ones are much tolerable , they give pleasant feelings to one's eyes at least .... But how on earth can such loud sounds give people pleasure...!!!!! I really don't understand, rather I don't want to do so...

Police raids in many bomb and firecrackers shops. They don't get any of those bombs either or if they get, they confiscate them all and take those to their own abodes. A friend of mine, daughter of an S.I of police or something like that told me herself that her dad and his companions bring these loud stuffs every year during Kali puja(Diwali) and they have fun... Waaaaoh...!! isn't that great( indeed) ??!!!
How do U expect to abolish crime from somewhere where the guard is only the thief..!!
Anyways no use going in these Hide and Seek game now.... But yeah they spoiled my sleep now, and that caused me to scribble this piece again, as most of the time happens(something urges me to write,and I come and speak out my mind here, though often I also write just like that).

Well, if you like sounds and all I don't have anything to say. Have a happy and safe Diwali...If You don't pay heed to my advices at least have a look at the stars and moons[mo(r)ons] on your TV screen(from Ranvir to sooo many small screen actors and actresses are screaming out there in fact Just for YOUR safety....!!)


Saturday, October 10, 2009


My computer has been formatted....

The things that I wanted to retain are there....I wanted my collection of 16 GB of music to be untouched, so they are there....But some of my very valuable and precious things I have lost...

Most of the pictures that I had taken,many documents, scripts, E-books,movies are lost from my PC, may be I can recover them(I hope I just can, the recovery softwares always ditches me...:(....) . May be I can get a few of them from other friends. But most of them are lost. So, I am in a bit pensive mood from last evening...I can take pics again , but those pix, those moods perhaps never be again there, they were very special to me .

On this context only , I was thinking it would be , if our -human minds could b Formatted and simultaneously a Good antivirus could have been applied...!!!!

Whatever things we want to retain will be in our mind, and the rest (what we don't want to keep) will be lost forever...!!!! We don't have to carry the things that we really don't wanna bear nice it would be ...!!!!

And yeah also the human antivirus ~ that would not allow foreign intruders(bad thoughts and ideas or may be those, that are not good for our mind or health) into us. And often those will be updated..!!!! Now, I cant give an idea how the updation could have been done...:P....

Everything would be fine and satisfying if and only if ,whatever we want can be retained, and whatever we don't would be lost. But if something different happens~ like something like what happened with my PC...(i.e we loose what we want to retain), then?!!!

Someone Lost something that one never wished in one's dreams to loose, then........Then for sure its gonna be a disaster ,may be not for the person as he /she would hardly be anymore able to recognise the missing thing, but to the persons involved with the 'Formatted One'...!!!

I m just afraid at such thoughts..Oh my God....

No, no , No need of Human formatting, AM happy with what I am....
May be someday in future "HUMAN Formatting" and application of "human Antivirus " will be invented...Pros and cons are limitless.....An accurate carrying out of the thing could bring wonderful results, while minute mistakes can cause tremendous effects on the society...

Am happy being not formatted..:)

What about you?
Would you like to be Formatted with a simultaneous application of a 'good' human antivirus....!!! ??? :)

Friday, October 9, 2009

It happens.

It happens....
Don't we use that pretty petty words quiet often.?!! Often they are used to console ourselves by others(and often by us only) and sometimes to console others... By saying those 2 words do we really accept literally that 'it happens'.?!!!

So many times 'it happens' happened in my life. Actually I think it happens in every one's life. Life goes on, so sometimes we just let it happen...or 'it' just happens.... Often I feel just too morose hearing it.Also often I feel sorry saying it to others...but at certain points of time you just have no other words except 'it happens'.

When your best friend does bad in the exam in which he/she studied very well,what can you say except 'it happens'? Yet for that person its not a mere 'it'.
It often may seem a bit queer and weird too, if we go a bit deeper....but who cares...!!!

The thought of whys and hows always instillate and keep on instigating the mind, yet the next time can we really stop 'it' happening.?!!
Because sometimes or many a times in life really 'it' happens, and we have no other options left to take it in some different ways...

Friday, October 2, 2009


I have been tagged by Guria , that too 4 times . I am doing all the tags.

TAG# 01 : Brands Tag

These are mostly the brands that I use in my daily life, may be I dont need some of them everyday.

Samsung,LG,Frontech,Creative : My computer darling's assemled parts belongs to these brands...:)

Sony : My Mobile phone, my music system.

Frooti : My favourite soft drinks.

Lakme : My nailpolish, kajal pencil,facewash, toner, moisturiser, sunscreen.

Sandisk : My pendrive and MP3 player.

Diesel : My college bag.

Philips : Tubelights and bulbs and other lighting of house, TV.

Dove : My Soap brands.

Pantene, Sunsilk, Dove,Livon: My haircare products.

Johnson n Johnson : I love it's lotion and facewashes.

Fastrack,Titan : My wristwatches .

Converse : Till now I only have only 1 pair..

Cadbury,Ferrero Rochers : My favourite chocolates.

Honey, Akkriti, Kaleidoscope, Pepe, Bare : Dress brands.

Ohhhh...there are soooooooo many I am exhausted, still there are several names creeping..........

TAG #02 : Innocent... or Guilty?

RULE 1- You can only say Guilty or Innocent.

RULE 2- You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you and asks!

RULE 3- Copy and paste this into your notes , delete my answers, type in your answers and tag to your friends to answer this.

So here goes the (could be dishonest) answers :

Asked someone to marry you? Innocent.

Ever kissed someone of the same sex? Guilty.

Danced on a table in a bar? Innocent.

Ever told a lie? Guilty.

Had feelings for someone whom you can’t have back? Guilty.

Kissed a picture? Guilty.

Slept in until 5 PM? Innocent.

Fallen asleep at work/school? Guilty.

Held a snake? Innocent.

Been suspended from school? Innocent.

Worked at a fast food restaurant? Innocent.

Stolen from a store? Innocent.

Been fired from a job? Innocent.

Done something you regret? Guilty.

Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? Guilty.

Caught a snowflake on your tongue? Innocent.

Kissed in the rain? Innocent.

Sat on a roof top? Guilty.

Kissed someone you shouldn’t? Innocent.

Sang in the shower? Guilty.

Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? Innocent.

Shaved your head? Innocent.

Had a boxing membership? Innocent.

Made a boyfriend cry? Guilty.

Been in a band? Innocent.

Shot a gun? Guilty.

Donated Blood? Innocent.

Eaten alligator meat? Innocent.

Eaten cheesecake? Guilty.

Still love someone you shouldn’t? Guilty.

Have/had a tattoo? Innocent.

Liked someone, but will never tell who? Guilty.

Been too honest? Guilty.

Ruined a surprise? Guilty.

Ate in a restaurant and got really bloated that you couldn’t walk afterwards? Guilty.

Erased someone in your friends list? Guilty.

Dressed in a woman’s clothes (if you’re a guy) or man’s clothes (if you’re a girl)? Guilty.

Joined a pageant? Guilty.

Been told that you’re handsome or beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said? Guilty.

Had communication with your ex? Innocent.

Got totally drunk on the night before exam? Innocent.

Got totally angry that you cried so hard? Guilty.

TAG #03 : How DUMB are you?

The more [x]’ s the “dumber” you are.

[ ] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were talking
[ ] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were NOT talking
[x] You have ran into a glass/screen door
[ ] You have jumped out of a moving vehicle
[ ] You have thought of something funny while walking by yourself
[ ] Laughed, then watched people give you weird looks

So far: 1

[x] You have run into a tree/bush.
[x] You know that it IS possible to lick your elbow
[x] You have tried to lick your elbow… a few times
[x] You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle Twinkle Little star have the same rhythm.
[ ] You just tried to sing them.

So far: 5

[ ] You have tripped on your shoelace and fallen.
[ ] You have choked on your own spit .
[ ] You have seen the Matrix and still don’t get it.
[x] You’ve never seen the Matrix.
[x] You type only with two fingers.

So far: 7

[ ] You have accidentally caught something on fire
[ ] You tried to drink out of a straw, but it went into your nose/eyes.
[ ] You have caught yourself drooling.
[x] You have fallen asleep in class and fell outta your chair

So far: 8

[ ] Sometimes you just stop thinking
[ ] You are telling a story and forget what you were talking about
[ ] People often shake their heads and walk away from you
[ ] You are often told to use your “inside voice”.
[ ] You use your fingers to do simple math

So far: 8

[x] You have eaten a bug
[ ] You are taking this test when you should be doing something more important
[x] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and didn’t realize it
[ ] You’ve looked all over for something and realized it was in your hand
[x] You have ran around naked in your house.

So far: 11

[x] You repost bulletins because you are scared that what they say will happen to you if you don’t.
[ ] You break a lot of things.
[ ] Your friends know not to use big words around you.
[ ] You tilt your head when you’re confused
[ ] You have fallen out of your chair before

So far: 12

[ ] When you’re lying in bed, you try to find pictures in the texture of the ceiling or wall
[ ] The word “ummmmm” is used many times a day.


I am (12/37)*100 = 32.43% DUMB !!!.....[:O]

TAG #04 : Questions

RULES: Respond and rework – answer these questions on your blog, replace one question that you dislike with a question of your own, and add one more question to the list. Then tag eight or ten other new set of people.

1.What is your current obsession? Sleeping and having chocolates.

2. What are you wearing today? Night dress.

3. What’s for dinner? Next is lunch, not dinner.

4. What’s the last thing you bought? Top up card.

5. What are you listening to right now? Jaao na.....

6. What do you think about the person who tagged you? A smart, talented Kolkatan..:)

7. If you could have a house totally paid for, fully furnished anywhere in the world, where would you like it to be? Brussels.

8. What are your must-have pieces for summer? Water bottle.

9. If you could go anywhere in the world for the next hour, where would you go? To Dalhousie (Uttaranchal one)

10. Which language do you want to learn? German.

11. What’s your favourite quote? " 'having' is not so pleasing a thing after all, as 'wanting'."

12. Who do you want to meet right now? None.

13. What is your favourite colour? Pink,Blue, White (Cant select 1)
14. What is your favourite piece of clothing in your own closet? Jeans and white tees.

15. What is your dream job? Joining BMW.....:D..[:P]

16. What’s your favourite magazine? Puja specials.

17. If you had $100 now, what would you spend it on? Chocolates, shoes, a house ,then if something is left will give it to you...:)

18. What do you consider a fashion faux pas? Fusion of Horrible colors(e.g Deep pink n deep yellow), too much of stripes all over..

19. Who according to you is the most over-rated style icon? Haven't thought about that....

20. What kind of haircut do you prefer? Being bald is best...

21. What are you going to do after this? Bath.

22. Who is your favourite sport star? Sachin Tendulkar.

23. What are three cosmetic/makeup/perfume products that you can't live without? I can live without them with great ease.

24. What inspires you? Good results.

25. Give us three styling tips that always work for you: Cant say. I dont keep an account when my what looks work for others' eyes..:)

26. What do you do when you “have nothing to wear” (even though your closet’s packed)? Old ragged jeans and an old top (time tested ones, that never goes wrong)

27. Coffee or tea? Coffee.

28. What do you do when you are feeling low or terribly depressed? I sleep or listen to music and have chocolates.

29. What is the meaning of your name? Like Honey.(:P)

30. Which other blogs do you love visiting? The ones I follow.

31. Favorite Dessert/Sweet? Chocolates cakes, pastries..anything with chocolate basically.

32. Favorite Season? Winter and Rains.

33. If I come to your house now, what would u cook for me? May be a stuffed Omlette.

34. What is the right way to avoid people who purposefully hurt you? Just avoid them, Dont talk.

35. What do you love most about yourself? I love the whole self of mine.

My question now ...36. Whats the use of doing this tag?

Now that I am over with the tags I am supposed to tag some people. if you have already done the tags , leave those and do the rest. Well, I am tagging:

Yellow tulip

Well the list is already very long... carry on people ..Happy Tagging....:)


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