Months of CurseS and BlesseS.

'17' is now a hard-to-forget-day of my life.

Though my first job's formal joining date was April, 19'2010, as the office was not fully ready for joining of the new employees, I joined the office from 17th May'10. But 3rd June was my last day at that office.I was not much satisfied there as because most of it were paper work , and it was like a punishment for a mechanical engineer to do those stuffs only through out days,nights,weeks and months.
My last semester examination was starting from 8th of June[This examination date also got postponed due to the famous 'MUNICIPAL VOTE' Festival.]
The sinister(oops. semester.,.!!) ended on 15th June with much tensions and chapped nails[As my last examination was my Elective III-Refrigeration and Air Conditioning, and my head was becoming too jammed with all the wires and coils and graphs.]. Among all this my interview result of another company came out, with my name in the confirmation mail. But as
my fate goes, like always - there was small '?' marks on my forehead as beside my name it was written "will be called for another interaction". 
Ultimately we were called on 17th June.And after waiting for an hour or so ultimately our turn came, all were given a bunch of forms to fill up, and I was picked up and taken to GM(P & HRD) for 'interaction' with the person under whom I was supposed to be placed. Our medical check ups and all took place and we were given Offer letters that very day , along with the declaration that we were the employees of the company from that day only. We were happy, I was peaceful.
So, from that day my job life started in true and proper sense, the way as I consider it.

Professional life --- It's weird, it's good, it's pathetic, it's sympathetic, it's empathetic.
It's a kind of world,  just after the college where I can easily use all the mentioned adjectives together. People are strange- politicians,diplomats, always doing- namby-pamby -ones, jealous ones, zealous one, intimidated ones, dominating ones. I know many of you know this 'real' world',  but it's totally a brand new world for me. It's my dream place , yet it's the hard-core reality. I fly here, still I need to fix my feet firmly on the ground to thrive and strive.

Today is another '17', I complete Two months of my professional life. It's hectic, yet I like it. It may kill me, yet I live for it. The person who couldn't stay awake if she didn't have a 8 hrs sleep daily,now works with hardly six and half hours sleep daily. that doesn't matter much, cause she is happy.


PS: Sorry dear friends and readers for being so late to post this. Hope you can understand the phase of tension, anxiety and currently hectic life that I am going through.

Take care.
Have a nice Day.

OTT

I dwell in the heart of my city.

I hardly feel suffocated here

Among all the congestion

And over-tight scheduled have-to-dos.

I love the fastness of the metro city,
I love the speed of the cars,
I love the dust, pollution,
Even the tight traffic .

Last night I was standing with
Two close friends on the top
Of a high-riser, not a skyscraper though...
And I had a perfect feeling of OTT.

It was my first time,
When I sensed properly my presence
So Much above earth.
I felt it.
With winds slapping hard against my face
And body,I stood straight to emulate.
I faced it all .

But at a certain point of time
Looking at the sky
And realising its vastness

I felt lonesome

For a few moments,

It was stertorous.

I felt a consternation

As if some apparition

Was present there.

We were discussing about UFOs

And ETs and UAPs ,

Which were just apposite and apropos.

I myself somehow felt like that..:P

It was a mixture of soo

Many thoughts and emotions

And feelings....

Standing Up above the word so high..!!

But above all, and still it was

Over The Top.

[P.S: Perhaps it would have been better if I wrote this one in essay format, yet I wrote it in poem format, just like that. I felt like doing like this only...:), still a bit OTT feeling ..hihi...:)..just wanted to express a bit of my thoughts and feelings as I always do here in my blog, which is actually a vent for my feelings and also provides me a scope to peep in your world..:) ]

Me 'n' My World..

My world comprising my dreams really vary a lot from yours. To many it seems very impractical.
Many of the closest pals shouts at me to step out of my Utopian land.

My favourite colour is white. My mom says, thats why there is no colour in my life; though several times i have tried to make her understand WHITE is actually the mixture of all the colours. But she is never ready to accept my logic.

As a child and even now my mentality doesnt match with most of those ppl of my age.To most, i am immatured, childish , irresponsible - who cant accept the reality.

Yeah that is true to a great extent . I always keep on thinking ,things will happen only in that particular ways, in which i would love to see them to happen. But hardy it evr happens so :(



Evry times my thoughts get shattered.
But here i am always denying to come out
of My Utopian land.

As a child i hardly evr played with dolls,
I was something of more serious species.
And as i grew i felt i was not like the rest.
I cant stop sayin what i really feel about U,
may be thats my fault, may b dats my all.
I cant say U 'i like u', If i hate U like hell.
I dare to say U 'i hate u' on ur face'.

I can a wear a mini n a halter-neck,
but yet i cnt say a fake 'I love u'.
I can go for a movie with 5 boys,
Yet i cant give anyone a 'flying-kiss', 'jst lyk dat',
Nor evn i can say a 'muahhh' to any of the 'dudes'.
The one i loved , left me alone,
Yet I cnt forget him and love someone else.

I see ppl around me falling n cryin for me,
Donno dey love me, ya jst tryin to take the Chance.
I see dem agn to flirt with other grls too,
I feel befooled by givin dem my frndship,
by biliving and tryin to feel wat they said.
I bilived dem all..???!!!!
I am such a fool...!!!!!

I am not a kid.
may be my mind hasnt grown yet ,like ur's.
I hvent evr dreamt of my 'Family Lyf' yet;
I cant do dat,
Though i can cry ol nite for my lost love.

May b i am Weird, i cnt accpt the reality.
But i am like dat.
ANd i am happy wid dat.
If i am not good, dnt talk wid me,
I dnt hve any prblm.
But dnt come to tell me to chnge.
I kno wat i am, wat i do.

I dream of my future in
the Brussels' countryside or
in any dreamy valley.
I can live my life alone,
I dnt need a MAN for me.
This hurts the ego of the Man.
He says u r bound to hve a man,
U cant do widout him..!!!

Is that true?
Cant i b alone in the place i want to be
Alone...!!
I dnt need the one who left me To GROW up.
He rather they say i'll grow up one day......
n understand dem ol.,
But wen will They nd U get me..???!!!!!

I dnt need u beside me,
I dnt have any expectation from U.
Bettr u too dnt expect anything from me.
The bonds of relations r not for me.
Perhaps m not made for dem.

I love my loneliness,
Accepting the 'Bliss' of solitude...
I dont need ur damn selfish World beside Me.
I make my world.
I dnt need the one who loves me for some
Self fulfilling reasons, for some purpose,
for the contentment of His desires.

If u can Love me for a reason,
"Let the reason be Love".
Can u love me by Not touching me??
Can u touch my soul widout touchin my body.???
Can u love me "unconditionally" widout seeing me??
Can u forgive all my wrongs??
Can u be right beside me loyal, all the time??
Can u expect Nothing from me??
Can u accept me as i am, dwarf n ugly??
Can u cool me down wen i am angry??
Can u be a part of my dream land??
Can u show me affection like a dad??
Can u adore me like a poet??
Can u let me be, wat i am??


If u cAn , u r welcome To my World.
But i kno U cant.
coz u r not made like dat.
I dnt want u too.
Ur way n mine are different, n never will they merge..

Be happy for dat..
u'll never have to tolerate me n my nuisance.

But let me be Happy in My Utopian land.
Dnt evn dare to pull me Out.
I was born to be here, n
d Day i'll DIE,
I'll go away from here only.
I dnt bother weder u really feel for me...
But dnt say a fake "I love U", to ME.
May be its jst mere 3 words to U.
But it means a Lot to me.

I love myself....Not u..so bettr u also dnt love mE and let me be myself n lemme go my way....